This is what makes me crave the city,
and the lonelyness of crowds

This.

I feel like I need so much more.
More.
More people, more noise, more lights,
more life.

That is why I sit here on the side of the road.
I see more cars and unfamiliar faces
And I feel somewhere more.

I want to be away from these small town people.
I want to be surrounded by those who know more, see more, live more.

I'm ready to leave my nest,
It's time for me to push off and be on my own for a minute.

I need alone time

I want to pull my hair back in the insanity of the city.
I want to do my solitary walk down the crowded street.

I want to get lost,
become invisible,
in a place where it matters.

A place where no one knows me, opposed to them knowing me too well.

I want to be able to have choices and no one know what I decide.
because they aren't right there... and it doesn't matter to them.

Just leave me be
to where I can decide
to live,
to dress,
to belive,
to be.

to wake up and never sleep,
Make coffee at three and bathe at midnight.

Can I do that without having to explain myself to everyone.

I want to live fast.
I'm so tired of the slowness.

I don't want to drag my feet where ever I am going.

Let me dance in the street and no one even care,
or start singing show tunes in the rain.

I just want to be out where there is more.
More to this then just staring and breathing.
But where there is life and being.

Take me to where I have purpose.